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I seriously am in love with Young Life and everything that it strives for.  I always get really nervous on Mondays after my chemistry lab is over, because that means that the next thing on my agenda is YL club.  I get nervous about how things will go and if anyone will show up and how awkward and shy I will be when everyone first gets there and if my part of club will totally flop and I'll forget what I'm saying.  Thankfully, it hasn't been like that yet.  I get really pumped on my drive there, and then the anticipation builds as our team warms up on songs and do a dry run of skits and eat a meal together.  I loved all of us eating together tonight.  It felt so right.  This is not always a recurring theme in my life, but it is concerning Young Life.  I always just feel so alive during and after club.  It's crazy and weird and I love it.  It's such a perfect escape from school and Drake culture and life, but I don't ever want to leave.

I come back to my room on Monday nights and am instantly in a bad mood.  I hate that.  I should be able to enjoy my Young Life high, and not have it brought down by worrying and stressing about homework and exams and projects and assignments.  I hate it.  An environment like that is not conducive to anything positive or productive at all.  I hate it.  I hate being around people that bring me down.  One of my favorite quotes:

"Surround yourself with only people who are going to lift you higher."

Young Life: yes.  Drake: not always.
I realize life's not perfect, but I feel like better wouldn't be that much to ask for.


I miss my family.  They always lift me higher.  I love them.