Wednesday, June 29, 2011

oh the ups and downs

I love Camp Tecumseh.  I really do.  But I've been so moody lately as a result of little things.  I get really upset when my campers don't respect me or don't listen to me, but I am so glad when devotions are super great.  I get really sad when my girls don't talk to me, but so fulfilled when I get to have a real life talk with one girl.  I get so upset when I get woken up by 45 guys chanting outside of my cabin at 6:17 in the morning, but am so amused by an apology note from the Buffalo Bros.  I absolutely did not enjoy lake time today because of our LSD, but I guess it's probably a good thing because now I know what I really need to do if such a situation were to ever arise.  It was fine.  I just became real real familiar with the bottom of the Richard G. Marsh lake and almost threw up I was so nervous.

I wish I felt connected to my girls.  I wish I already knew all about them and we could have a relationship.  I wish they would tell me everything that's on their hearts and I could just listen and offer advice.  I wanna sit outside and have life talks with these girls, but I just don't know how.  I feel like I'm still learning so much as a counselor, and I understand that I have to wait to learn everything, but that doesn't mean that I still don't want to know everything right now.

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